Monday, February 1, 2010

hold me in your arms...

did you know that the school day begins in the afternoon in haiti? so, at 4:52 p.m. on january 12, 2010, most classrooms were full of beautiful black babies, learning all they can, striving to make a better life for themselves than that with which they were dealt. but at 4:53 p.m. the golden gates of Zion opened up to welcome them as the walls crumbled around them. do you hear their cry?

i still do. the sounds of weeping. wailing. it breaks my every moment of silence. each day i look into the eyes of my own child. i clutch her in my arms, not wanting to ever let go. i feel her warm breath on my cheek as she cuddles even closer, sensing something is very wrong. i am thankful still. because many moms, haitians, are still suffering. their children are gone. my heart is heavy. the emptiness consumes me. i am trying friends. real hard. but i can't shake it. not yet. for me, the reality of this raw pain lingers.

i look to the hills, from whence cometh my help. and i continue to pray. and pray. JAH JAH! i trust in your infinite wisdom. in the good times. and in bad. i know you giveth and you taketh away. and though about two hundred thousand, 200,000, of my brothers and sisters have been wiped off the face of this earth in a single unforgiving moment, i still trust in you. always. til shiloh.

i feel you ayiti. one love.

19 comments:

Sherry said...

As a mother yourself, this touches you. You have visual evidence of what has been lost by so many. And yet you are thankful for the blessings in your own life, for the daughter you still hold dear in your arms.

Imagining how you would feel in the situation that so very, very many have been in makes you the compassionate, sensitive, caring soul that you are.

Sending you love. Sending all of those mothers love. Sending all of those motherless children love. Sending Haiti love.

Wanda said...

Breathe deep the beauty of life. Some days remembering that is what allows me to continue in faith. Peace and comfort to us all. One love.

Gayle at Planet M Files said...

It is all too terrible to process. I think of the moms, dads, children, that have lost their most precious loves and I can't imagine their pain. I admit, I don't want to imagine their pain.

Se'Lah, your photos in the last few posts have been so heart-filling and beautiful.

Christina said...

beautiful and touching.
haiti lives in our hearts
always.

jacqueline said...

so very touching...thank you for this. you have touched my heart!

Toni said...

A beautiful and heartfelt post, Se'Lah, full of pain, yet filled with hope and faith, as well.

Kat said...

beautiful post. you completely filled my soul with your words. I'm thinking of you and sending you positive and peaceful energy tonight!

Kikit said...

i feel sorry for all the mothers who lost their children during the earthquake. in just a snap, their most precious treasures were gone. that's so painful. hugs.

thanks for dropping by my blog last week.

My Castle in Spain said...

Thank you for this touching post Se'lah. Nobody will ever forget what happened in Haïti.
A big hug to you

Kim Mailhot said...

Love, prayers, deep breaths, hums and rocking to sooth and comfort us all...keeping arms around all of us.
Big Love to you, Beautiful Heart.

Tracy said...

The sorrow, the cries... still felt, still heard... May the people of Haiti find peace, hope and joy again... Sending you ((LOVE & HUGS)) my friend :o)

Scattering Lupines said...

prayers.

patty said...

the news story that still haunts me was of a newsman broadcasting from the sight of a school... too horrible to imagine the images. still praying, too...

suzyQ said...

your words are so beautiful.
so touching.

Marilyn said...

My heart also feels the pain of loss in Haiti and I think of the ones that must go on. Sending them loving thoughts and prayers.

Birdie said...

Sweet loving Se'lah, I know exactly what you mean. I always wonder whether one day we will understand why things happen the way they do... in the meantime we must continue to trust and to help one another. Love. One Love.

Tracey said...

What a dear, tender post, Se'lah. There are no words to express the heartache when I see those babies of all ages wandering the streets. Mother always taught us to never question God on what, when or why he does anything - just be still & know he is God. I pray that all of those in pain will snuggle in his arms & know his comfort & love.

Cam said...

My heart feels the pain of those mothers, Se'Lah... To desperately search for a way out of the nightmare of losing your child, but to awaken every day to the reality that they will never be here again. It is a raw pain that never leaves, and I pray for the mothers. I pray. And, I send my love...

vchelle said...

I take deep breaths and release all those feelings of lack and limitations! I take deep breaths for the people of Haiti because their spirits are much stronger than anything in this world! Tangible things come and go but it's calming to know that our spirits last forever! And I'm sooooo grateful to our Creator! Sending positive energy, thoughts and sending love, compassion and strength to the people Haiti!