Wednesday, March 3, 2010

let not your heart be troubled...

when her heart began to hurt, she would say out loud, "let not your heart be troubled." peace and serenity would soon follow. the profound effect of those words on her soul instantly drew my attention. and though she has now gone home, her words remain. so today, i share:

her story

~ ~ ~

It was one fine day in January,
when I saw the world my way,
unfamiliar to me,
it was on that ninth day.

The weather was nice,
the air was pleasant
and I was so happy
on that day in 1914.

Although some time pass throughout my life
and days went by in May
I only keep my head up high and smile
and keep humming along my way.

Unfaired I was so many a times
I lost count saddened saying:
shoot, shoot - have mercy Lord,
have mercy.

I walk the walk; I stayed the course
my heart may hurt.
my face may thirst
even when those may hurt me.

Have mercy, Have mercy, Oh God I say
have mercy on those who plot to hurt me
when those say I do not care
made promises and went away.
I fight and tried my best each day
and every day my best God bless,
was just a test.

June, July and August.
then September rolled around.
Will it change in September?
November was the same all around.

I've reached more time for better,
that better I should have gained.
The blessings that was given
was not given in vain.

I see them in all my children.
I see them in all their children,
and their children's children'
children is all the same.

Everyone got notice the same time,
and same so many did not come
to see me on my send off.
While fighting to regain my ground

I tried to please so many,
but so many I could not change.
I know I did it my way,
and that I'm not ashamed.

I've jumped over banister and palings
and yes, fences too ...
and ducked and hide in pain with
Sam, John, Linda, Ann, Mark, Eddie
and Millicent too, even in the rain.

Running down the road for dear life
on Allen's land bridge gap
in black rock, St. Michael's, Barbados;
plans changed from St. Croix to Boston, Mass
the travel was long
620 I stayed and after some time, I cried.

Some times those days were so lonely
and it was so cold.
Going from the window to the porch
was not an easy stroll

I found my way to Georgia
that's Douglasville first, of course
and then returned to Boston
620 dropped off at 201.

My love can never end;
not even when you frown.
I didn't forget October
or February because it did rain.
Which wasn't sad or anything
all, but all the same.

Remember your creator in all your days.
Remember who fall the rain;
Remember that each day is not a promise
or a portion to each the same;
But live in life with love. Not strife;
so much we all can gain.

December, oh December;
when will I see you again?
So please, "Let not your heart be troubled."
Even when it may seem the end.

goodbye grandma.

26 comments:

C.M. Jackson said...

a beautiful goodbye and story of a life well lived--I am very sorry for your loss---your words made my night and day--I will now remember to say---

"Let not your heart be troubled.
Even when it may seem the end"

thank you

m.e (Cathie) said...

hugs to you & your family ♥

Kim Living Life said...

Se'Lah you know i am with you now.
xx

rayfamily said...

Beautiful thoughtfulness. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Christine--RHP said...

beautiful tribute to someone well loved. sorry for the loss of your beloved grandmother.
(doubly touched as my own gran's date of birth is January 9, 1914)

cinner said...

Se'Lah, oh I am sorry for your loss, what a strong woman,,,what wisdon let not your heart be troubled.Hugs to you Selah. you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Tracy said...

With you dear friend as you & your sweet family say goodbye... I am so very sorry for your loss, Sweetie. My heart pounds with your words today... I am struck with these words: "My love can never end"... "But live in life with love"... We never lose those we love as long as the love burns alive in our hearts for them. :o) ((BIG HUGS))

margie said...

blessings to all of you.

Mr Puffy's Knitting Blog: said...

I'm sorry for your loss.... it's always terribly difficult to say goodbye.

I love the sentiment behind her words. A sense of peace is one of the greatest gifts we can have in this life.

Christina said...

love to you and your family. ~

Wanda said...

Yes..."let not your heart be troubled even when it may seem the end."

Thank you for these beautiful words. My heart is with you, my sistah-friend.

ELK said...

a special tribute . you are amazing ~ blessings to you

SE'LAH... said...

Thanks for all your love and support. I am eternally grateful for your kind words.

one love, my dear friends.

susanna said...

I'm sorry for your loss, Se'lah. This is an eloquent goodbye.

daily mom said...

such heartfelt words...and such a touching goodbye. my love and heart are with you.

vchelle said...

Her story brought joy to my heart and the words brought beauty to my ears and soul! I had to keep the tears back! Just Beautiful! I'm so glad you and your daughter blessed her soul as she did yours!

Marilyn said...

Touching words. So sorry you have to say goodbye, but she will be in your heart always. My mother was born the same year. She has been gone 7 years.

Kamana said...

you are in my thoughts. hugs to you, my friend.

Connie said...

thoughts, prayers and hugs... friend.

vchelle said...

P.S. I love you!!

Gayle said...

So beautiful, Se'Lah. Hugs to you.

libby said...

a truly moving and beautiful tribute. such a bright spirit shines through those words. sending love.

lisaschaos said...

Beautiful image, sad words. Hugs!

Marilyn said...

beautiful words and a loving tribute to a special lady. Thanks for sharing. Love sent your way!

Chris said...

"Remember your creator in all your days.
Remember who fall the rain;
Remember that each day is not a promise
or a portion to each the same;
but live in life with love. Not strife;
so much we all can gain."

I love this stanza especially the line . . . "But life in life with love." This is beautiful. Thank you.

Jac said...

Oh Se'Lah, what a poignant tribute to your Grandma. I love the "Let not your heart be troubled" such a blessing in the words. My thoughts are with you and your family at this difficult time. xoxo